A month ago, Caleb was still in my womb.
Really missed the period of pregnancy.. So much so that I keep staring at any pregnant lady whom I spot. Yes.. I’m literally STARING at their bulging tummies. I will be filled with envy the moment my eyes set on them. Sometimes it really makes me ponder if I am sick in the mind.. or is it natural for someone who has just lost her son?
Many who have read this blog are worried for me.. wondering if I am fine cos I seem so depressed. Thank you my friends, I am really ok. Not saying that I have fully recovered from the loss cos I never will. @ times when I think of Caleb, my heart will ache as I know I'll never ever find this missing jigsaw piece anymore..
But reality sets in.. life has to continue on so whatever it is, I'll have to look ahead and move on. I'll be back @ work this week so hopefully I am able to keep myself mentally occupied.
Perhaps only when I am pregnant again, then I will feel comforted.
My pregnant photo with Caleb
EDD - 22 Apr 2008
1st scan on 5 Sep 2007
Scan on 12 Sep 2007
Scan on 24 Sep 2007
Scan on 27 Sep 2007
Scan on 8 Oct 2007
Scan on 25 Oct 2007
Last scan on 16 Nov 2007
2 comments:
then u better dun go back work and stare at all ur colleagues...
Just back at work today.. How not to stare at my pregnant colleagues when there are altogether 6 of them around? Any corner I make in school, I'll see a pregnant colleague. 1 of them even has the same EDD as me! Looking at her bulging tummy, I really can't help feeling down..
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