I droppped my tears in school..

I've always thought I've been emotionally strong in school. I failed eventually. I finally broke down into tears at my work desk yesterday.

A colleague came by my seat. She saw Chloe's baby photo and commented, "Oh so that's your younger one." I was kinda shocked by her question. Perhaps she wasn't aware.

"Erm.. no." I replied.

"Oh the elder one. Then the younger one?" She asked again.

"I had a miscarriage.." After such an answer, I could see her "oops" look. She just mentioned that my girl is cute, then she walked away.

For that instant, I felt so sad. My heart was seriously aching. By right, next week should be my last week in school, then I'll go for my maternity leave. The next moment, I could feel my tears rolling down my cheeks. I couldn't control my tears anymore.

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Last week, I did something silly. I was at Orchard for my lasik review. After which, I took a walk in Taka. Went to the baby fair and saw some really beautiful baby boys' wear. I couldn't control my love for the clothes so end up, I bought 3 sets, despite knowing that the sets would not be handy now.

Actually I would really like to go to the Babycare Festival held at Expo these few days but yesterday what Ivan said (You have a baby meh?) struck me.. Yah.. I lost my baby boy. There's no need for me to go there. Should have stop all my foolish acts.